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Inner Space

A child and adolescent curriculum writer devoted to the exploration of inner, and individually driven spirituality that strengthens world wide inclusivity. My curriculum comes from Life's inner story. This is a record of my Life's inner space.

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Children have 100 languages- and so does light.

Perhaps everything has it’s very own 100 languages to describe what it is, what is sees, what it feels, and what it knows.

Walking by her room at night.

Tonight I was walking by Nancy’s room and it pulled me in with a deep, peaceful force. At first I just stood in the doorway, looking, and then I sat down and It was like I could feel her. I sat there, still as maybe I have ever been before, forever. It was like in some sense, I gave birth to something about her, or I held something about her, something I didn’t know before. Something still, and permanent and huge. It was something more than beautiful.

Weekly Wisdom with Josh Reeves: Marilynne Robinson

Weekly Wisdom with Josh Reeves: Marilynne Robinson

Rolling, ready point of experience.

I’ve been connecting with this little person, Nancy June, all morning. I haven’t seen her in a while, so this picture is from over 2 months ago. When people see it they often think she’s sucking her thumb, but she isn’t. She was moving her hands around as if describing a very particular point of experience. While we watched her move around, just in the smallest half moment before we couldn’t see anymore, she seemed in love.

I often wonder what it will be like to hold her for the first time.

She moves a lot, but it’s more of a rolling delicate feeling than a kick or a punch. It reminds me of dancing in the grocery store or in other’s living rooms when I was little. Uncomfortable for my mother, natural for me.

I’m tired and I’ve gained weight. I don’t feel entirely like myself, and it’s more difficult than ever to feel valuable. I’m quite peaceful, perhaps more sad than usual, but overall I’m confined in a particular contentment that can be described as understanding.

I’m mellow.

I’m ready to give birth.

I’m ready to nurse, and hold, and cry and feel exhausted and awake. I’m ready to hum and whisper and lay in the bath together. I’m ready to carry, to know, and to rest. I’m ready to walk and read and play. I’m ready to listen and understand, describe my movements and dance. I’m ready to share, I’m ready to see, and I’m ready to grow. I’m ready to be born.

Weekly Wisdom: Mother Teresa

“We think sometimes that poverty is only being hungry, naked and homeless. The poverty of being unwanted, unloved and uncared for is the greatest poverty. We must start in our own homes to remedy this kind of poverty.”

Weekly Wisdom with Josh Reeves: Mother Teresa

The brainless Josephines.

Don’t be fooled. Those anatomical circles do have feelings, but they are only a select few. The rest lay mercilessly to the will of those that can feel, and see, and know, and be, and the ones that can’t… we call those the Josephines.

By: Lyla

Teachers of Forgiveness: Martin Luther King Jr.

Weekly Wisdom from Josh Reeves: Teachers of Forgiveness

Josh’s new book is out!

Josh’s new book is out now. It’s an exploration of choice and personhood through the lens of how we build our lives, moment by moment.

Signed, personal copies are still available- just follow the link below.

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Interesting sensation

I read this book almost every week when I carried Gavin. When I gave birth to him small pieces of it were so apart of my spirit, they came to life inside of me. When I was going up the elevator to labor and delivery I could hear this little piece of the book, “Don’t think of it as pain. Think of it as an interesting sensation that requires all of your attention.” This became a mantra for me. I was far removed from the aesthetics and sounds of the hospital until Gavin was born, I myself barely made any noise at all. I was so immersed in every feeling and sensation my body had, my attention had absolutely nothing else to absorb. The feelings were intense but they were phenomenal. Truly omnipotent, they were incredibly perfect- every single one. When Gavin was born I was bursting with energy for days. I think if I would have paid my attention to anything else I would have been absolutely exhausted by the hospital and all of it’s extremities.

People ask me about my birth plan now, and I don’t have one. The only plan I have is to pay every single particle of my attention to the inside of my body, mind, and spirit until everything else just is. Nothing else is more important to me, my space is already laid and it’s on the inside.

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